Your love; it's soul captivating <3

31.8.06
stressed is desserts spelt backwards

even my mum noticed that i'm stressed out.
i was standing in the doorway to the kitchen while she was preparing lunch and all i had to do was let out a bit of a sigh.
she came over and put her hand on my back.

"are you stressed?"
-silence-
"you know, you dont have to do this to yourself. as long as you've tried your best.."

that's something i havent heard in a long time. all this while it's been "why did you fail this test? do you know what's your problem? you procrastinate too much, drag things out too much.. yadayada.. canoeing"

i couldn't say a word to her just now, just random imperceptible noises.. and yet tears are spilling as i type this entry.
God what is wrong with me?

Save Our Souls
please?
God i feel so distanced from You.
i need to think. about what's going on in my life, about where my life is going, about my unhealthy obsessions. pull those thoughts back. those that i've let slipped because i thought i don't have the time to think them through.

funny how i can hang stubbornly on to some math question and try and try again to get the answer right but not want to think when all it requires is some honest reassessment of my feelings and priorities.

Haagen-Dazs green tea is LOVE.

go to, then; your considerate stone.
9:01 PM
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27.8.06

my mummy knows how to make me happy! :) she bought Lindt chocolates for me!! woah i must have made her go on some powerful guilt trip mann.. not only did she buy me 2 tops, she stopped the ridiculous cold war with my dad, and now she buys me chocolates! yayyy! :)

anyways, they really shouldnt do that anymore. do u know how stressful it is to wake up one day to find ur parents not speaking to each other, then wake up the next to find them laughing at how brainless TV shows are nowadays?
hmmmph.

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10:13 PM
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ARGH!
I'm so FORGETFUL it's DISGUSTING!

I've lost my GP FILE!
luckily it only has work from term 3 on..
BUT MY CT1 PAPER IS INSIDE!!

GRRR.
now i have to go zap someone's gp file (rahh that means zapping science and ethics notes too! :S) and buy The Right Word since i lost that too during IHC t&f.

pfuit.

and whatthefish i'm sure i get this kind of group member! she was uncontactable when we were doing our second draft and now when i ask her to dl the survey result animations she tells me that her comp's not allowing her to do it and "if [i] want it by tmr [i] have to dl it [myself].or ask someone else to do it." sure she tells me she can do it tmr during break but ARGH stop giving us shit ok??!!!

.
.
&%#!
.
.

CHILL YANG CHILL.
THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.
THINK MACRITCHIE.
THINK GIDEON/GIDEON JNR.
THINK YANGSTER THE PADDLE.
and bury urself in schoolwork again.

^@%#!

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5:03 PM
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26.8.06

since there isn't a single bloghost that combines lj and wordpress, i'll have to improvise.. so from now on there's gonna be an avatar-substituting-emoticon for every post and well, yknow they say a picture speaks a thousand words, so.. haha. but i still havent figure out how i can modify this to lock certain posts. hmm..

i think my mum is psychic. she just showed me a racer back tank she bought from me from s&k + some speg top. omggxx. that's something off my wantlist! but i know she doesn't read my blog. no way.

~~if she did she'll stop this ridiculous cold war with my dad immediately~~

my maternal ah gong is in hospital now because of some blood clot in his head or something like that. but i talked to him on the phone earlier and he sounds ok, so i'm :) and my mother's :) too.

i'm tired

go to, then; your considerate stone.
11:16 PM
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relient k has funky lyrics! :)
look at the lyrics to these songs:

we point the finger even though it's not polite
we condemn the son of God (we're hoping two wrongs make a right)
maybe it is them
or, maybe it is me
or, maybe it's maybeline

the truth is, excuses are lame
accept consequence
accept the blame
we're all sinners
we're all unclean
maybe we're born with it
or maybe it's maybeline

Maybe it's Maybeline (Excerpt)

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.

[Chorus:]
Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all.

Pressing On

go to, then; your considerate stone.
9:14 PM
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ho hum! i've been studying antony and cleopatra the whole of today..
:{ very sian.

yknow what i think i'm scared of exams. it used to be a breeze in primary school cos i was always topping the level but now i feel damn dumb in class. i don't get math at all now and i dont have a tutor to fall back on anymore. :( pls mummy hurry up and find one ok?

rahh.

anyways, here're the pics from yesterday! :)

the mahster's farwell present from his students

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8:51 PM
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25.8.06

today i was dying in school, like really dying. contemplated leaving halfway to come home and sleep but held out cos MRMAH was going to come down to rj to see us one last time before he leaves for perth! all the AEP APEs were there :) we chionged his present in like an hour! haha. it's this canvas filled with pictures of us and quotes like "shou1 gong1 le4! GO HOME AND GET A LIFE" (adapted in this context: "shou1 gong1 le4! I'm going home to get a life") and "THAT'S GOOOOODDDD" and "not cute but INTERESTING!" :):)

i really miss those art lessons where we sit in the turpentine vapour- filled art room and ate cup noodles and gossiped, occasionally lifting the brush to our canvases and adding a few inconsequential dashes of colour :'-)

it was really great to see everyone again, chers, jo, ying, emm, rng, manori, olives, sneha, xiaoting, cynthia, sara.. even noelle dropped by with a note for him. i think mrmah was touched, tho he kept "slamming" our collage-thingimajig.. :'-)

mr mah made art that much more interesting, that much more meaningful. he showed us it wasn't just about perfecting the colour scheme, about blending those different shades of colour perfectly. art is more than that. it's about putting across a message.. but not to such a degree of blatantness that people can see a story in ur painting. it's really all about the subliminal message. he also showed us how to see the beauty in what others would consider sturcturally messy or 'ugly'; he taught us that messiness was ok, that u needn't be so fastidious about leaving fingerprints here and there..

sigh. he's probably the best art teacher i've ever had. period. :)

so anyways, after we've had a chat in the rj art room (he told us about how he renounced his singaporean citizenship and the civil servant he 'terrified' haha), we went to j8's secret recipe for dinner.

i had chicken cordon bleu, which was rather good. it was this chicken stuffed with cheese and ham thing. jo made it a bit unappetising by saying it's like a lump, which led me to think of tumor lumps, specifically my mum's tumor that was THANK GOD removed before it exploded..

will upload the pictures in my hp another time. :)
for now,

GODSPEED, MR MAH! I'll miss you! :)

anyways, i dug out some aep stuff..

the TSUNAMI AID donation drum AEP APEs painted

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10:36 PM
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24.8.06

this is what mrp_rvis always angsts about,

"During the networking session after the Q & A session, a high tea reception
will be served where all attendees are welcome."

source: some mail re confluence2006

i OTOH, am angsting about the fact that my parents are freaking childish. they aren't speaking to each other again. i shall exaggerate my sad-angsty-daughter act (SAD for short) to guilt trip them into seeing their stupid mistake.

hurumph.

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10:38 PM
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i finally learnt about the significance of the 'fish' symbol after an randomly flipping thru a random library book:

the fish comprised a rebus, a riddle composed of sympols suggesting the
sound of the words they represent, the greek word for fish, ichthus, provided
the initials for the formula "Jesus Christ son of God, Saviour" the rebus of 2
curved, intersecting lines created a means by which two christians could
secretly identify each other. One would trace a curve in the dirt. The other, if
a christian, would respond to create the sign of the fish.

i should come to the library more often. helps further my mugging plans :)
anyways, WE HAD WATER TRNG YESTERDAY! lol. it's like a luxury good or something.. so i made the most of it while i can! :) like when i was dying after the 6th k, i told myself, com'on u only have 6k left to row for th whole week, so keep going! haha. so proud of myself. i loved the conditions yesterday. it was hell rowing towards the 1k mark but on the way back the winds blowing in ur face and u feel like u're going really fast so it bcomes motivation to go even faster :) and u really understand how ur paddle can 'catch' better when u dig it in further in this kinda conditions.

i realise that i like it alot better when i can actually feel like i'm pulling something with my paddle. i dun like rowing when the water is too 'soft', i like it when it's got more resistance, so that when u're pulling u paddle thru it u feel like u're ripping a piece of cloth apart :)

it was really really good. just what i needed after such a stressful week. even better than a haircut :D

and mr k_h was very encouraging :)

oh yah, how a single-craft rower can entertain herself during trng: if the water is choppy, play this game called "catch the next wave" (damn creative i know :P). basically, for each stroke reach ur paddle further so that u can catch the approaching wave's crest. kept me entertained for a loooong time :D

.. and i saw some sji guy rowing Gideon yesterday!! rahhh. so near yet soo farrr. i shoulda burst over and hijack him. i really did contemplate doing that. not like a pirate-y hijack but yknow ask that sji guy nicely if i can swap boats with him, but i resisted, and it became another entertaining game: "Catch Gideon if You Can". X) oh well, at least Gideon was green with jealousy to see me zoom past in Gideon Jnr..
yep, i've decided, RJC03 is now called Gideon Jnr. it's pretty nice to row in tho my knees aren't as high when i sit down and i dun get as much kick but it's got lotsa motivational msgs inside. like the LIVE TO EAT, EAT MY WASH and ps's

T1 500m
12/07/06 2nd :)
14/05/06 1st XD

i wanna be able to do sth like that too in less than a yr's time, only then will i allow mself to record my nwkc06 results and hopefully inspire some other junior.. :)

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8:23 AM
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23.8.06

go to time.com/coolest for the 50 coolest websites of 2006! excellent time-wasters! :) my favourite is drawn.ca

.. where, i found this cool superficial friends video: (it's kinda too big for my textarea but u can go see the original here)

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12:07 AM
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22.8.06

I'm searching for things that I just cannot see
Why don't you don't you don't you come and be with me
I pretend to be cool with me, want to believe
That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve
I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life
Where is the love that I'm looking to find
It's all in me, can't you see, I can see, why can't you see it's all in me

haha i should just turn this into a lyricsblog. :)

anyways, i remember what i wanted to post earlier already:
today on the bus home, i saw 3 rgs girls who i've seen around before (yah i'm one of those who remember faces better than names). they boarded the bus at different times, and they got me thinking about different things.
like the first girl to get on the bus got me thinking about whether that was how i used to look as a rgirl? seemingly over-confident, a "i-can-handle-everything-myself-but-u-look-like-u-cant" kinda look. cos that's the way she looked and she had her nose stuck so high up in the air, i thot it was a waste of energy to roll my eyes at her since she wont be able to see it anyway. thankfully she flounced past me and sat somewhere behind me, otherwise i might have stared at her until her right shoulder tingled (like how mine would when the same thing happens to me, or when i imagine that that's what's happening anyway).
the other 2 girls that got on were clearly friends, and they reminded me of how i used to feel so much ease in school, and dint give a hoot about rules and stuff, just concentrating on having fun with my friends. they got me thinking about chers, and trees, and abby and elisa (even tho i still see her on a daily basis).. about the niners. funny how it dint occur to me to think about the wONEders too.. when i was still in rg, i dint have tchrs who label u and make u feel like u had better stick to that label and hang onto it with ur dear life. i had tchrs who encouraged, who never gave up, who genuinely cared about each and every one of us even tho there were like 50% more students in a class in rg. i had friends who dint give a hoot about watching their manners and appearance and would throw everything aside to joke around with u. now i see girls who watch the way they speak, the way they accessorise and try to attract the guys' attention left right center. some of them try to be so discreet it's BLATANT. haha. and everytime i see girls like that i wish i were back in rg where the only times we paid attention to guys were when we were gossiping about the select few "cute" ones.
sigh.

as u can probably tell, i had too many thots in my head this afternoon on the way home. it was such a relief to snuggle into bed for a nap.. i woke up forgetting where i was.

go to, then; your considerate stone.
10:30 PM
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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My
mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

The Blowers Daughter Damien Rice

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10:09 PM
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god i'm drowning.
and it hurts that u cant see.
.. and that u probably wont ever know how i scrunched up my face to stop myself from screaming out in desparation today at something u did.

i can be such an emotional basket case sometimes i scare myself something bad.

why cant i just let it go?
and make myself hate u and make like u've never existed and make like we've never met?

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
In the power of Your love.

go to, then; your considerate stone.
7:57 PM
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did you hear about the insomniac dyslexic?
he lies awake all night wondering if there really was a dog.

hurrayyy! EOM OWNED. A_J

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1:19 AM
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21.8.06

omggxx it's damn tough trying to be a mugger

but i can't give up! 30++ days left, come on girl!
after that u can row and row and row and row and row and row...
u can even go live in macR if u want to, admist all the skinny squirrels and fat monkeys (are they squirrels skinny because the monkeys are fat and eat a lot btw?).

for now, just buckle urself down OK???

DIE EOM DIE!!!

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10:52 PM
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I WANNA GO LAOS WITH THE TEAM!

RAHHH!!
MUMMY!!
it's time to let me go. :( i can take care of myself.

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10:16 PM
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i'm pretty amused at how shocked my friends were when they saw my new haircut. this has to be like the third hair cut in one and a half months? X)

anyways, i find that getting a haircut is a very good way to relieve stress. the snip snip snip of the scissors beside ur ear is a very therapeutic sound. although i kinda think some of the stress has transferred itself onto my mum, she was all "whatever did you do to ur hair??? [desparate look]". haha! sorry mummy! it'll grow back, i promise. :P

oh yah and i realised i've gone a full circle back to looking the way i used to when i was a little kid,

collage of childhood pictures: see the similarities between my haircut now and then? :)

with the short hair and all. sometimes it's like i'm trying to reach out for those lost childhood memories, trying to recall how genuine laughter sounds like, so that i can draw on those happy times for strength to keep me going.

sigh.

on the other hand, i'm starting to really like econs. mr s_wden can be really encouraging :) today during tutorial when he was handing out the EU sugar market DRQ, he looked at my mcq marks and went, "well that's an A! [smile]". haha. i was really thankful for that encouraging remark, even tho it was actually a border line A, like 70% on the dot, and also the fact that it was just an mcq exercise. but yknow sometimes it's these little affirmations that motivates people, esp people like me. :)

math nowadays is just plain ______. i used to like it so much more in sec 4 when mrs ang taught us. i got As back then.. but now, with a tchr that says "i give up" on an average once per tutorial, it's kinda hard to stay interested. i guess that's why i dont make an effort to be uncareless, and remain unconfident of myself after 2 fails.
ah well. what to do?

then i see you standing there
wanting more from me
and all i can do is try

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6:01 PM
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20.8.06

i am under instructions from my math tutor to sleep early tonight. hmm. we'll see.
i still have to cook some stuff up for EOM, otherwise i'm good for being a log.
~~ok i'm not making sense again.~~

yknow i wrote this letter to us 2 days back, a v looong one wrt lessons i've learnt from relay duathlon. but i plugged in my ipod to charge it and the computer died, so that unsaved letter was unsalvageable (sp?). nvm, at least i got a chance to tell some of us some of the contents on saturday..

i hate these kinda sudden panic attacks that causes ur heart to seize up in fear, leaving u to wonder if ur dream is.. just a dream? or a shared passion that everyone will give their all for? overcome their personal fears for?

but
take heart,
trust in us. :)

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10:07 PM
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19.8.06

They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

Turn off the Light Nelly Furtado

I have found a kayaking role model in Carrie Johnson.

In 2003, Carrie battled a series of injuries and illnesses, suffering from pneumonia, elbow surgery, and was diagnosed with Crohn's disease. As a result, she missed the World Championships, the Pan American Games and nearly three months of training.
Even that didn't get her down. When her body was ready, she came right back to the training center, put her boat on the water, and got back to business.
[... a week after elbow surgery to remove bone chips, Johnson was in the weight room doing one-arm pushups on a slant board and assisted one-arm pull-ups.]
...
She lived and trained in Chula Vista all of 2004, fully devoting herself to the sport and the pursuit of making the 2004 Olympic Team. It paid off. She shocked the entire kayak field at the 2004 U.S. Olympic Team Trials in winning the women’s K-1 500 and earning a spot on the U.S. Olympic Team. She and her teammates also won the K-4 500m, and qualified their boat to the Olympics.

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9:05 PM
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i really like lyrics to Dixie Chicks' songs. and it's not just because they're the only people to write a song on my favourite word either. :)

There Is No Good Reason
I Should Have To Be So Alone
I'm Smothered By This Emptiness
Lord I Wish I Was Made Of Stone
Like A Fool I Lent My Soul To Love
And It Paid Me Back In Change
God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

A Heart That's Worn And Weathered
Would Know Better Than To Fight
But I Wore Mine Like A Weapon
Played Out Love Like A Crime
And It Wrung Me Out And Strung Me Out
And It Hung Years On My Face
God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

Now My Sense Of Humor Needs A Break
I See A Shadow In The Mirror
And She's Laughin' Through Her Tears
One More Smile's All I Can Fake

There Is A Wound Inside Me
And It's Bleeding Like A Flood
There's Times When I See A Light Ahead
Hope Is Not Enough
As Another Night Surrounds Me
And It Pounds Me Like A Wave
God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

God Help Me
Am I
The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

Am I the Only One Dixie Chicks

C

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8:34 PM
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i hate it.
i hate the way i cant set my heart upon something and slog away at it until it's done.
:(

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12:59 AM
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18.8.06

talk about self fulfilling prophecies. now my right thigh muscle really feels strained.

ba ba IMBA ba ba IMBA ba ba I'M IMBA!
rahh.

what makes yang high?

canoobs
coffee and donut
nutrisoy and kinder bueno

#3 kept me awake during h3 econs. but it was a waste of energy cos even tho it was the first official lecture, the content was kinda old. IF I SEE THE LONDON TUBE MAP AGAIN, I MIGHT JUST MISTAKE IT FOR A CIRCUIT BOARD.

ok that did not make sense. but who says i have to make sense when i'm basically brain-dead from stressing over the amount of stuff i have to do in this week.

rahh. there i go again. when will i learn to let go, let God?
yang cant u see that it always works out in the end? >:(

DRAGON BOATING AGAIN TOMORROW!!!

yayyy!! :)

anyways there's some bgr talk for parents coming up and omg the letter that announces it screams "i'm trying tooooo hard!!!" rahh! i quote, "BGR, a term that strikes fear and consternation in the hearts of some (if not most) parents... a hot potato that keeps landing on our laps and threatens to get hotter."
..funny images of jumping potatoes popped up, landing in my cushiony brain and threatens to get funnier/jumpier. XD

.. and that's not all,
"[Dr John Tan] will help parents negotiate the seemingly landmine-filled landscape of teen relationships:

What we need to know
How we need to think
Who we need to be"

GAHHH. hyperbole much?? and for some reason when i saw the "What.. How.. Who" part i thot immediately of the 3 economic questions. >.<

shhit.

and i wonder why the talk is titled "Straight Talk to Parents on BGR"? maybe they're going to discuss this:

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11:32 PM
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15.8.06

can anyone explain why my right deltoid have been twitching the whole afternoon???

.. i'm starting to love running. it's mindless. it's practically the only thing i can do without having to involve my emotions, or can distract me from the chaos i find myself in sometimes.

should i keep running? this way i'll never get caught.

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7:32 PM
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14.8.06

haha ELISA TAN u sneaky canoeist! i dint see ur 2 tags until just! X)

anyways, there's some chem relaxation week going on in school and there're all sorts of bloody lame jokes pasted around school. try and guess this one:

Guess a compound: RIP 10
Answer: IOdide. "10DIED".

u can highlight the line after that to see the answer. i guessed it almost immediately :) takes a lame person to understand another, haha. strangers without borders. even science-art divides X)

well this one is funnier and applies to the canoobs:
(Fe)male: Male plus Iron, stronger, tougher, yet more flexible.

lmao.

and now for the funniest yet:
i dunno how reliable the gym treadmills are but i am pleasantly surprised at the distance i managed to cover today in 51mins and 9 seconds:
"383.8 mile = 617.666 227 2 kilometer"
whoa.

no that wasn't a chem relaxation week joke. and yes that's what the treadmill reported, as elisa and manda can testify. also reported: total altitude gained= 500++m (cos i was running incline).
on the other hand, i think half of my brain cells have just died on me after that mind-numbing run. running on the spot and staring at some white coloured stain on the gym's glass panels does that to u sometimes. much as i would like to think it trains up my ability to concentrate. :C

You Are An ENTJ

The Executive

You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.
Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.
Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.
You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.

You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

What's Your Personality Type?

when i took the MBTI in sec3/4, i was an ENTP. hmm.. have i changed? i'm definitely more responsible now than before.
tho tt doesn't explain what i'm still doing online and not mugging.
ok i'm gone.
or consider me gone anyways. :P

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9:00 PM
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13.8.06

haha shit once i start blogging i cant stop. anyways this is something funny i thot of during math tuition:
my tutor was saying that u know u're stressed when u start doing meaningless stuff repetitively, and stuff that you wun normally do.
like she has this hci student who is a chronic tv-watcher and loves to walk in and out of the house.
what do i do nowadays that fit the criteria?
MUGGING!!
haha.
ok not as funny now when i put it into words. blah.
i'm not doing anything justice today with my atrocious writing.

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10:57 PM
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If only economists were all one-armed, how simple my life would be! Rahh.

oooh anyways, relay duathlon was fun! haha. tho kallang stinks as usual. HANNAH CHOI, THANK YOU BABE FOR NOT GIVING UP! she's damn cute lah, kept going "ok hannah, you can do it. com'on hannah!" lol. somehow we managed to edge our way up to the 7th position. lol. i think i made some enemies. XP. cut some pj girl twice during my run, felt a bit bad about that so i decided i'll encourage everyone i pass from there on with a cheery "jiayou!", some of them were nice enough to smile back and say "you too!".. the rest.. *shrug*
rahh come on lah! it's all in the name of fun, dun see everything as a competition yah? :) ok amanda, i realise i sound a bit schizo here but.. :P
tho i have to say muddy and javine did an awesome job. 5th place! yayyy!
i love the canoobs :) and i'm so proud of us! <3

ONE TEAM. :)

dragon boating afterwards was loadsa fun too! haha. jave, me, hannah, muddy, and 2 guys we dun really know made up the "six pack" (actually the correct term is "back pack"). that means our boat had super strong abs. lol. teamwork is really of utmost importance in db, i think everyone in our boat did really well :) anyways, i hope the canoobs get to row together at least once!
after the debrief mr g_ dropped us a bomb, CHIN-UPS. lol. butbutbut this is the super exciting part because...
I'M FINALLY A MEMBER OF THE HAPPY SQUIRRELS' PULL-UP CLUB!
X)
i dint even realise when i did my first ever pull up.. until it finally registered that the view is somewhat different: i was looking at the wall instead of staring stubbornly up at the bar like i would have been doing normally :D
yayyy!

ok at this point u should've realised that i am being highly ineloquent. this is a result of reading econs notes the whole day. cos my econs notes are all scrawled in a hurry and are mostly comprised of disjointed sentences.
X)

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10:23 PM
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The arresting phase of faith is God's way of testing us before the final victory. He wants to make sure: Are we really depending on Him? Will we really be grateful if we make it? Can He trust us with success? Are we going to prove humble enough to handle the big prize?

Tough Times Never Last, But Tough People Do!Robert H. Schuller

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10:07 PM
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11.8.06

haha i was angsting the whole day in school.
but now i feel infinitely better. yayyy! the wonders of a trip to slumberland.

sheesh.

anyways,
RELAY DUATHLON AND DRAGON BOATING TOMORROW!!

woohoo!!!

[edit] i just realised i've blogged consecutively for the past.. uh 5 days! woah. this is a personal best. lol. feel loved, blog! :) [/edit]

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9:16 PM
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10.8.06

my head is battling with my heart
my logic has been torn apart
so don't give up on me, i'll come around in time.

yayyy!! water training was hella good!! it's so nice to be back rowing in gideon again, tho he's become rather dirty, like there's mud and stuff inside. anyways, i brought my watch along today so that i could time myself. and i wore a cap! and i wore the jersey! lol. felt like it's a new beginning..

but i'll never forget the tONEd sisters! :) (haha i coined this term myself, cool aiight? just fyi, current tONEd sisterhood has a population of 2! abit sad lah but nvm, trust jl.) i've learnt alot from these seniors: yogi, peishan, tracy.. perseverance, optimism, always working hard for what you believe in and never letting go of your goals.. i know how cliched this phrase is, but thank you for your guidance and support. i wont let you down next yr, i promise. i'm gonna give it my all. they say let the most deserving win, well, i'll make sure i define deserving.

now i've got humungorginous blisters all over my left hand. sigh. i couldnt bathe properly just now, could only use my right hand to soap. i highly suspect i havent managed to completely clean slurpee out of the right side of my hair. rahh.

but what matters is.. TRAINING WAS GOOD!
X)

funny moment during trng:

jolene, "hey java u're burnt! your muscles are red.."
me, "haha, then there's no chance of getting.. what's that? hep B.."
java, "(quizzical look) huh? why?"
me, "cos ur muscles/mussels are cooked! then u know when u eat raw seafood you get hep B or sth right?"

i never fail to amuse myself.

XP

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3:29 PM
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9.8.06
WHATEVER IT TAKES

shhit.
i shouln't have gone blog surfing.
i've never wanted to change craft more than now.
k1 sounds like a safe haven.
at least i don't know who i'll have to face 07.

shhitshhitshhit.
this is not the way to go yang. you're never meant to give up easily on anything.
come on. trust in GOD.
and TRAIN HARD.

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

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12:14 PM
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8.8.06

Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on

haha i ought to be slapping myself. i did not just come online to check for blog updates and hunt around for lyrics!! rahh. slapslap.

Reason will not reach a solution
I will end up lost in confusion

yah ok elisa. fine fine fine. ky does sing very very well.

antony to cleopatra,

Feels like youre making a mess
You're hell on wheels in a black dress
You drove me to the fire
And left me there to burn

Every little thing you do is tragic
All my life, oh was magic
Beautiful girl
I cant breathe
"

in the meanwhile, adam van k makes a guest appearance specially for amanda:

haha ok CHINESE LIT.
NOW.

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8:10 PM
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Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Now it all
turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say
it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I
need to know
All about you

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Sway Bic Runga

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8:01 PM
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7.8.06

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah :)
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright

I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

Hand in My PocketAlanis Morissette

another song to note: Say it Right Nelly Furtado. i listen to it every morning on the way to school to wake myself up :)

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12:05 AM
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6.8.06

hands up those who hate PW
yes i see ur hand there there and there.
yayyy! everyone hates PW.

[/rant]

I WANNA GO FOR PLANET SHAKERS CONCERT!!!!

RAH.

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11:04 AM
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5.8.06
the red nelo k1 dream

according to this website, this is Olympic champion Eirik Larsen's boat. i think it looks very very cool.

ooooh. i almost forgot to blog about this dream i had a couple of days back:

i was at macritchie, we were all training. i took out a red nelo from the shed and rowed around in it. it was a very very very pretty red nelo k1, ultra sleek and shiny. jiaolian saw me using the nelo and told me i can keep training in it from that day on. i was happy. i zoomed around the reservoir. then training ended and we all had to go back to the pontoon. that was when i realised i was using a fishing rod as a paddle. the fishing rod was made of silver and gold wires. i wanted to make adjustments to it, but broke it in the process. i brought the fishing rod to jiaolian. he didn't want to help me and walked away. i became very upset and worried and hunted around for some other wire that i can use to fix it. i found some bronze wires and i used it to tie the pieces of the fishing rod together. the fishing rod was shorter after that. and i got to see my red nelo one last time before the dream ended.

i was still a tad sad about the fishing rod when i woke up. but somehow the exhilaration from bursting around in the red nelo came back in drips and draps, and i felt hopeful again. :)

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2:03 PM
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i realised that by leaving ur hp pouch behind at the canoe table while u run off for ur 45 mins run, u can learn a few things about the canoobs:

i am extremely blur. either that or i have ADD.
elisa is very funny. she sent a sms from my phone to java that says, "Ah.. i've been left behind. Please tell my owner to pick me up from Elisa."
van prolly doesnt pay attention in h3 chem. she was replying xm's msgs enquiring after the whereabouts of my phone.
siaurui is ______ (u decide). she sent this sms to me, "Elisa's got yr hp."

XD i just died laughing all over again. but i realise that the most impt thing u can learn about the canoobs from the above episode is this: they are love.

anyways, van tried out a pick-up line on me yesterday:

van: i have 2 words for you, "i love you"
-stunned silence. i waited for a.. whatchamacallit.. ~~a bombline?~~ a punchline, but it never came. so i asked the first question that popped into my head-
me: uh.. 2 words? "i love you" is three words my dear
van: 'cause "you" and "I" are one! :))

lol.

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1:17 PM
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1.8.06

i thank God for helping me realise how important it is to make full use of ur time and not spend it wondering about this and that.
yayyy!
from now till end of promos u can call me a mugger and instead of being indignant, i shall feel encouraged. X)

after promos tho, that's a different matter althogether.
i shall be playing hard and training extra hard (extra hard cos i shall continue trng hard even now) then.

slog now, feel satisfied later.

drill drill drill drill that in.

_{so until then, i shall be forgetting all about you.
it's better that way anyways, then at least things can be the way it's supposed to be.}

yayyy.
i have hope.

:)

i won't burn out will i?

no i won't.
because i'm very good at psychoing myself.

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10:36 PM
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Et toutes mes peines

Child of God. 12^th July 1989. RjcanYeist! 1/2 of Pundits of Pun. TIME Person of the Year 2006 ;) Orange! B&J's Chunky Monkey! Dark chocolates! Sleeping in on rainy days! Attention span of 600 goldfishes.

Trouveront l'oubli

Quand je trouverais l'amour

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